thoughtered

so I was pretty convinced. Informed decisions and all. New church.

Was I to look for a new church? Yes; was I to switch membership from FCC to a new church? Apparently not. I remain where I have been for all these years--with a family, full of flaws and imperfections, yet enough love to choke on. I love this family--and I need to love through and be loved in spite of my flaws and imperfections, too... of which there are too many to count (thank goodness for GRACE and FORGIVENESS)!!!!

The Lord closed the door on moving churches. I need to remain where He has placed me for now... until He moves me. Not my emotions or my whims... but His leading. Besides... the pastor rocks out sermons every week. I'm blessed. :)

confused elation

i know i haven't written much lately; i've not written a lot in general as of late. i've had a hard time processing my thoughts and coming up with much worth saying... although there is always something out there to say. words are precious, worth taking the time to spend the extra thought and moment before sharing them with the world.

i found out today that rebecca, the ms lifelines nurse i've been working with this past year, has resigned from her position. she called me and told me about it. she has a new job lined up that she is really excited about, and i am excited for her, honestly. i really am. she has become a good friend, and i am excited to see her do something for herself and her family--that is so important. i know we will stay friends, i'm not worried about that. i will miss her, that's for sure. but...i would be more excited if it didn't toss my world upside down on its head!!

without a field nurse, our monthly CHAT's are no more. that's been...my sole source of support within the ms community here in kansas city, and it means a lot to me. rebecca isn't sure they are going to replace her or not, so...

we're left dangling.

to say i'm sad about this is a complete underexaggeration. try depressed. disappointed. hurt. lost. confused. anxious. wind knocked out of me.

how do you balance wanting the best for someone when it turns your own world upside down and puts it into a state of confusion? it's a hard paradox. i don't like it.

look who I found!!

Some of you may remember my bestest friend in middle school, Tasha. Well, she gained a new bestest friend in the form of a husband named Matt, and they have TWO adorable kiddos. I love it. I saw them all for the first time--first time seeing Tasha in SEVEN YEARS! It was sooo good to catch up... I have missed her so much. Sweet times of fellowship, indeed!!