the random scats of a thoughtered soul in transit

Scats Thoughtered

21 June 2010

I grew up with an older brother, but I never knew him as well as I wanted. He was 22 years older than me, and already had a 4 year old daughter by the time I came into this world. My mom tells me we are alike, but not growing up with him, I don't always see it. I grew up obsessed with science fiction/fantasy--a common bond. I gave the Lord of the Rings trilogy a try because of him. When the movies came out we went as a family and watched it on Christmas Day--we took up one or two entire rows in the theater, so many of us went! I think we all went because of how much Scott loved these books, and it was contagious. I will never watch any of those movies without thinking of him.
His laugh was contagious. The way he looked at the world was different from anyone else I knew. He was a painter--brilliant painter. I never understood why he would not sell his work... apparently, for the same reason I never share most of my poetry. Regardless of how 'good' it may be, it's never quite good enough... something can be changed, tweaked, fixed, improved, pulled out more... maybe he was the re-instigator of our family's obsession with perfectionism... although everything he seemed to do was perfect, at least to me.
The man knew how to cook--and if the grill was involved, relinquish your right to the meat. You will never make anything half as good as what Scott would make. He could make grilled cheese a gourmet delicacy!
He loved to learn. He would pick up a history book and read it cover to cover, just to learn more. I love this about him; it is something I do. On those days I miss him particularly, that's what I do--I go find a random history book off my shelves and start reading. He knew so much, about so many topics. I would think of him as a walking encyclopedia. It was fun to sit and talk about random topics, he always knew a little bit about it... and he ALWAYS had an opinion about it!! (nothing like me... right? haha).
He made one promise to me he never kept--just one that stands out anyway. He always promised to take me to the races with him. He was incredibly passionate about NASCAR and the Chiefs--hence, my loyalty to a football team that seemingly doesn't understand the meaning of WIN these days, but it doesn't matter. NASCAR... I watch it on TV sometimes. Not near as often as Scott would, by any means... but it's something that makes me feel closer to him, while walking this earth. Maybe one day I will actually go to the races in person--my sisters always seem to go!! :)
There are SO MANY things I never had the chance to learn about my brother. I can only think of one day we spent alone together, talking. I wish there had been more of them. But, I can honestly say I am better off for having that one day, even, with him. His funeral was a packed house--at least it seemed that way to me--I could not believe how many people showed up, how many lives he touched. I should not have been surprised, though. He was an artist. He painted beautiful pictures: with words, with oils and acrylic, with pen and ink... and with his life. I miss you, Scott, and I thank God for all the beauty you left behind for those of us left here to remember you. Happy birthday, brother.
I could sit here and watch lightning storms for hours... it fascinates me. The amount of energy conducted in every lightning bolt... the power behind it... the more I watch these storms, the more convinced I am of the presence of God... it reminds me of this discourse in the book of Job... and it makes me sit here in awe, staring at the lightning, waiting for the storm to roll in... how awesome... how awe-inspiring... gives me a greater perspective of the God to whom I am praying!

Job 38:1 NASB - Then the LORD answered Job out of the whirlwind and said,
Job 38:2 NASB - "Who is this that darkens counsel By words without knowledge?
Job 38:3 NASB - "Now gird up your loins like a man, And I will ask you, and you instruct Me!
Job 38:4 NASB - "Where were you when I laid the foundation of the earth? Tell Me, if you
have understanding,
Job 38:5 NASB - Who set its measurements? Since you know. Or who stretched the line on it?
Job 38:6 NASB - "On what were its bases sunk? Or who laid its cornerstone,
Job 38:7 NASB - When the morning stars sang together And all the sons of God shouted for joy?
Job 38:8 NASB - "Or who enclosed the sea with doors When, bursting forth, it went out from the
womb;
Job 38:9 NASB - When I made a cloud its garment And thick darkness its swaddling band,
Job 38:10 NASB - And I placed boundaries on it And set a bolt and doors,
Job 38:11 NASB - And I said, 'Thus far you shall come, but no farther; And here shall your proud
waves stop'?
Job 38:12 NASB - "Have you ever in your life commanded the morning, And caused the dawn to
know its place,
Job 38:13 NASB - That it might take hold of the ends of the earth, And the wicked be shaken out
of it?
Job 38:14 NASB - "It is changed like clay under the seal; And they stand forth like a garment.
Job 38:15 NASB - "From the wicked their light is withheld, And the uplifted arm is broken.
Job 38:16 NASB - "Have you entered into the springs of the sea Or walked in the recesses of the
deep?
Job 38:17 NASB - "Have the gates of death been revealed to you, Or have you seen the gates of
deep darkness?
Job 38:18 NASB - "Have you understood the expanse of the earth? Tell Me, if you know all this.
Job 38:19 NASB - "Where is the way to the dwelling of light? And darkness, where is its place,
Job 38:20 NASB - That you may take it to its territory And that you may discern the paths to its
home?
Job 38:21 NASB - "You know, for you were born then, And the number of your days is great!
Job 38:22 NASB - "Have you entered the storehouses of the snow, Or have you seen the
storehouses of the hail,
Job 38:23 NASB - Which I have reserved for the time of distress, For the day of war and battle?
Job 38:24 NASB - "Where is the way that the light is divided, Or the east wind scattered on the
earth?
Job 38:25 NASB - "Who has cleft a channel for the flood, Or a way for the thunderbolt,
Job 38:26 NASB - To bring rain on a land without people, On a desert without a man in it,
Job 38:27 NASB - To satisfy the waste and desolate land And to make the seeds of grass to
sprout?
Job 38:28 NASB - "Has the rain a father? Or who has begotten the drops of dew?
Job 38:29 NASB - "From whose womb has come the ice? And the frost of heaven, who has given
it birth?
Job 38:30 NASB - "Water becomes hard like stone, And the surface of the deep is imprisoned.
Job 38:31 NASB - "Can you bind the chains of the Pleiades, Or loose the cords of Orion?
Job 38:32 NASB - "Can you lead forth a constellation in its season, And guide the Bear with her
satellites?
Job 38:33 NASB - "Do you know the ordinances of the heavens, Or fix their rule over the earth?
Job 38:34 NASB - "Can you lift up your voice to the clouds, So that an abundance of water will
cover you?
Job 38:35 NASB - "Can you send forth lightnings that they may go And say to you, 'Here we
are'?
Job 38:36 NASB - "Who has put wisdom in the innermost being Or given understanding to the
mind?
Job 38:37 NASB - "Who can count the clouds by wisdom, Or tip the water jars of the heavens,
Job 38:38 NASB - When the dust hardens into a mass And the clods stick together?
Job 38:39 NASB - "Can you hunt the prey for the lion, Or satisfy the appetite of the young lions,
Job 38:40 NASB - When they crouch in their dens And lie in wait in their lair?
Job 38:41 NASB - "Who prepares for the raven its nourishment When its young cry to God And
wander about without food?

Job 40:1 NASB - Then the LORD said to Job,
Job 40:2 NASB - "Will the faultfinder contend with the Almighty? Let him who reproves God
answer it."
Job 40:3 NASB - Then Job answered the LORD and said,
Job 40:4 NASB - "Behold, I am insignificant; what can I reply to You? I lay my hand on
my mouth.
Job 40:5 NASB - "Once I have spoken, and I will not answer; Even twice, and I will add nothing
more."

18 June 2010

Church Discipline: Beauty in the Eye of The Beholder

Church discipline is the forgotten stepchild of the modern church. It is rarely practiced and often viewed as provincial and antiquated. Children are disciplined for unruly behavior (and that is becoming a rarity in today’s culture); some adults may practice self- discipline. However, the thought of an adult correcting or admonishing another adult is not always well received, unless it comes from a very good friend (who may be persuaded to back off the rebuke). The church, however, is told to mind its own business and avoid the appearance of being judgmental. The leadership of a church admonishing an individual is downright preposterous to many. Church discipline is often viewed as harsh, unloving, and/or judgmental. The Bible has been replaced by moral relativism as society’s moral compass. Before our very eyes we are seeing evil triumph due to the lack of biblical confrontation.# Jay Adams, in his Handbook of Church Discipline, states that the “Failure of church discipline… has led to chaos in the church.”# Church discipline must be understood, practiced and enforced in today’s church by the members and the leadership. As long as the purpose and intent of such discipline is misunderstood and not consistently applied, the unity and purity of the church is at stake. Through all of this, all discipline, when performed and applied correctly, is for the believer’s good and God’s glory.
Discipline can mean anything from punishment to educational training, instruction to control.# According to Dictionary.com, the word discipline comes from the Latin word disciplina, a noun which can be translated as training, instruction, system, or obedience.# Closely linked is the noun discipulus—it is easy to see from where the English words disciple and discipleship come.# A disciple is one who is trained or instructed in a particular discipline, such as academia or a skilled trade. It is not only expected but required for a doctor to be trained and well educated in his discipline—none would opt for an uneducated doctor guessing his next move during surgery, as though playing the game Operation! In the same way, instruction and knowledge is applied to matters of faith. Just as the physician must tend to the physical, material body, the church is charged with tending to the immaterial# part of the body—the soul. In John 21 Jesus charged Peter three times to care for his flock—an allegory referencing Christian believers: “Tend My lambs”; “Shepherd My sheep”; “Tend My sheep”.# All the instruction needed for all teachers and leaders of the church to shepherd adequately is contained within the pages of the Old and New Testaments: “All Scripture is inspired by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, for training in righteousness; so that the man of God may be adequate, equipped for every good work.” (2 Timothy 3: 16-17 NASB).
When a child is disobedient, the parents have an obligation to correct—to discipline. Discipline is not abuse—as previously stated; the term denotes training, instruction. It is an act of love and concern on the part of the parent. It is far more dangerous to withhold discipline (training, instruction) than it is to correct in the moment of disobedience. Discipline early and consistently is the key to aiding a child in learning correct and acceptable behavior—Proverbs 22 instructs parents to “Train up a child in the way he should go”—to not do so is neglect. Discipline is an act of love. Yet it behooves one to remember, “Love is oftentimes tough. Love is not sentimentality.”#
Christians are commanded to love one another throughout the Bible.# “Church discipline is…simply watching over one another in love.”# G.I. Williamson stated it this way: “Lack of church discipline is to be seen for what it really is—not a loving concern as is hypocritically claimed, but an indifference to the honor of Christ and the welfare of the flock.”# The word discipline evokes many opinions and emotions among the body of Christ instead responding rightly in truth. John Calvin, in his work the Institutes of the Christian Religion, stated:
But because some persons, in their hatred of discipline, recoil from its very name, let them understand this: if no society, indeed, no house which has even a small family, can be kept in proper condition without discipline, it is much more necessary in the church, whose condition should be as ordered as possible.#
Galatians 6:1 teaches, “If another Christian is overcome by some sin, you who are godly should gently and humbly help that person back onto the right path.” Church discipline may seem to be anything but gentle and humble to the uneducated individual sitting in the pews. Yet “church discipline is one of the primary means God uses to correct and restore His children when they fall into sin. It is also one way in which He maintains the unity, purity, integrity, and reputation of the church.”#
In some ways American culture has returned to the times of the Judges: “In those days there was no king in Israel; everyone did what was right in his own eyes”# (Jdg. 21:25 NASB, emphasis added by the author). Moral relativism has become the cultural heartbeat of society—instead of operating from facts, feelings reign supreme. There is an “enormous zone of personal privacy and moral autonomy”# among individuals today. According to Al Molher, president of the Southern Baptist Theological Seminary, “The very notion of shame has been discarded by a generation for which shame is an unnecessary and repressive hindrance to personal fulfillment.”# He continues by explaining, “Without a recovery of functional church discipline—firmly established upon the principles revealed in the Bible—the church will continue its slide into moral dissolution and relativism.”#
The church today is suffering from an infection which has been allowed to fester. As an untreated boil oozes germ-infested pus and contaminates the whole body, so the church has been contaminated by sin and moral compromise. As an infection weakens the body by destroying its defense mechanisms, so the church has been weakened by this ugly sore. The church has lost its power and effectiveness in serving as a vehicle for social, moral, and spiritual change. This illness is due, at least in part, to a neglect of church discipline.” #
Not all discipline is (nor should it be) a public affair. To be most effective, discipline begins with each individual, at the heart level. The focus must initially turn from self-worship and adulation to God-centered worship and devotion. Julie Ganschow, Biblical counselor and author, explains this process: “The first change that must take place is in the heart itself. We cannot change our own heart. Because our heart is deceitful and wicked (Jer. 17:9), we cannot possibly know the depths of its depravity, nor can we conjure up enough goodness within ourselves to change in a real and lasting way.”# Recognizing sin within and making changes that give honor and glory to God are the first step in discipline. It is between the individual and God. This is self discipline. We are to “discipline (ourselves) for the purpose of godliness.”
(1 Timothy 4:7, NASB). When God brings these areas of sin to light, it should be a cause for rejoicing—“My son, do not reject the discipline of the LORD or loathe His reproof, for whom the LORD loves He reproves, even as a father corrects the son in whom he delights.” (Pro 3:11-12 NASB).# However, It is when this step is ignored or rejected that behaviors develop which are often dishonoring before the Lord. Jay Adams points out that, “If a brother will not discipline himself, then another must take that task on himself.”# When a believer joins a church a covenant is initiated—the believer is putting himself into the hands of a body which, “through the elders, will minister to his needs, and in everything he will be in subjection to the church.”# If an area of sin continues to grow in a believer’s life, the level of church involvement necessarily increases. With each step the goal is restoration, not retribution—this is a very important point that is often missed. Initially, as a problem arises between two individuals, the matter stays between them: "If your brother sins, go and show him his fault in private; if he listens to you, you have won your brother.” (Matt. 18:15 NASB). If reconciliation is not obtained, one or two more are brought along to confront the erring individual (Matt. 18:16) with the same goal: repentance and restoration. If this is not successful and the individual persists in sin, refusing to repent, it must be taken before the church (Matt. 18:17). “The church acts against sin within itself in order to continue an effective witness.# When the members know that the church will take action to maintain its order, they are discouraged from sin. This is heightened if they see discipline being maintained#.”# If none of these are successful, the erring member is removed from the fellowship of the church. “At the same time the persistent sinner is put back into the world, which is the domain of Satan. The brother has chosen to serve Satan and is now relinquished from the protective grace of God so that Satan can do with him as he wishes.”# This is the practice of 1 Corinthians 5:5: “I (Paul) have decided to deliver such a one to Satan for the destruction of his flesh, so that his spirit may be saved in the day of the Lord Jesus.” The individual is let loose to experience his own depravity for the destruction of his flesh—always bearing in mind the warning in Matthew 10:28: "Do not fear those who kill the body but are unable to kill the soul; but rather fear Him who is able to destroy both soul and body in hell.” (Matt. 10:28 NASB).
We are disciplined for our good, to conform us more into the image and likeness of Christ—but ultimately, all praise and glory is directed to God Himself. Discipline honors God and gives Him the glory.

The importance of maintaining the unity, purity, integrity and reputation of the church is paramount for the glory of God to be maintained. God is jealous for His own glory—He will not share it with another. Jesus Christ paid the ransom for the people of God with His very life. He protects the church by maintaining its purity. In 1863 the Reverend Eleazer Savage penned these words: “The high and professed object of discipline, is the purity of the Church.”# Carl Laney states, “Christ has a deep interest in the purity of the church.”# He draws the parallel between the Old Testament feast of Unleavened Bread and Paul’s admonition in 1 Corinthians 5: “Your boasting is not good. Do you not know that a little leaven leavens the whole lump of dough? Clean out the old leaven so that you may be a new lump, just as you are in fact unleavened. For Christ our Passover also has been sacrificed.” (1 Cor. 5:6-7, NASB). Those disciplined can be—and indeed, some are—restored to fellowship within the church. One sign of true repentance is described by Reverend Savage: “A real penitent will be likely to confess too much, rather than too little.”#
There is an indescribable beauty to properly handled church discipline. A person may be hurling along towards a cliff at full speed, unaware of their impending demise; between them and the cliff stands his church family, calling out for him to stop before he runs off the edge into oblivion—they are standing in the gap, pleading their cause. "Greater love has no one than this, that one lay down his life for his friends.” (John 15:13 NASB).
A very poignant conclusion has been written by a man of authority on the topic: Jay Adams. Reinventing the wheel seems unnecessary and superfluous in this circumstance. I quote:
Discipline is not easy to do correctly or even to do at all. It involves courage and fortitude. It requires care and precision. It must be done in neither a sloppy nor a careless manner. Therefore the process must be carried on with the knowledge and assurance that what is being done is right in God’s sight. But even though discipline is difficult and runs many risks, churches dare not run the greater risk of withholding a privilege and blessing provided by Christ, thus depriving sinning members of all the help He has provided for them. Nor dare they disobey Him in refusing to follow His program for church discipline lest, in the end, they find themselves disciplined by Him (cf. 1 Cor. 11:31-32)#.








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27 May 2010

remember when...?

i remember when i used to love running down the hill behind my home and swinging with all my might, just see if i could reach a cloud, or touch a star--or maybe just flip the swing over while i'm still on it! i used to love swinging away the summer, seeing how far i could jump from the swing, how high i could go and do a back flip off the seat... and playing King of the Turtle (much more fun to shove someone off a cement turtle than trying to claim a hill). Not to mention the teeter-totter... oh, how many times did i fly OVER the handlebars at the hands of a 'friend' who found it humorous to slam their end into the ground?! i sure did give my fair share of paybacks, those days...

today i walked down that same hill (oh, it used to be soooo long... did the water erode the soil away? or were my legs just that short?) and sat on one of the swings--no fighting over who got what swing, or arguing over who should flip it over the bar one time (or two!) to make it higher. It was just me, the breeze, and the sun with a few passing clouds. instead of packed, hard brown dirt with a few grassy patches or sharp wood chips the playground is now filled in with shredded tire pieces--much more comfortable against my bare feet. i kicked off and quickly remembered how to get so high, so fast--the farther i leaned back and the harder i pulled myself back upright, the more height i gained. the first few attempts to soar were fun--and then i had the sudden reminder that i'm not six anymore; my stomach is much farther away from my throat!! oh, the vertigo... i never experienced THAT at six... i would twist the swing as hard as i could after going as high as possible and go crazy (we named that one the 'ham dam from viet-nam... yet i never understood the name, just that it was a lot of fun!). i'm pretty sure if i did that today, the peaceful scene would have been interrupted by gracing the tire-covered playground with my lunch... (oh, that did happen when i was six... but, it's okay for a six year old to toss their cookies after playing too hard!). i leaned back (as far as i dare) and closed my eyes, enjoying the breeze as i went back and forth, listening to the squeak of the chains, reminding my stomach to enjoy the moment and not get too excited. i could hear the cars passing by on the road behind me, the sound of the leaves rustling in the wind, the birds singing to each other... and for a moment, i remembered what it was like to be six.
for a moment.
when the swing slowed down enough for me to jump off (i didn't want to break an ankle jumping off of it, now, would i?), i moved over to the park bench and sat, looking at the swing continuing its back and forth motion. from here, i'm comfortable--this, i can do. at that moment, i realized how sweet it it is to be able to remember--and enjoy the memories of that six year old girl.

15 April 2010

25 random things about me

1. i am pursuing two degrees at midwestern baptist college--an associates in music and a bachelors in biblical studies.

2. my car sounds like a pop can full of rocks rattling down the road. not good.

3. i co-lead a support group for multiple sclerosis--www.masteringstrength.com

4. i love sitting outside on days when the humidity is low and the breeze is blowing gently... to sit and write, think, read... sometimes to just stare at God's creation around me and marvel at how blessed I am to live on this planet...

5. i want to write a book... spill out some of this mind onto paper and attempt to drive everyone insane with the mindless drivel... ;) yet i don't know what KIND of book i want to write... non-fiction (several ways to go with that... humor or psychotic breaks with reality at the top of the list...), fiction, autobiographical, poetic, instructional, devotional... too many options to choose just one!

6. i spend most days arguing with myself about what i should have done yesterday.

7. i find myself completely envious of others creative abilities, yet tend to neglect and suppress any of my own that i may have within me.

8. i am taking voice lessons for the first time in my life. i am singing four songs this semester. two are in english, one in spanish, and one in italian. quite a new experience!! talk about being outside of my comfort zone...

9. i am learning the piano. it is a fascinating instrument. i klunk along like the amateur i am; my piano instructor's fingers fly across the keys like he doesn't have any joints in his hands to slow him down! seriously?!

10. my passport expires in 2012--i want to take at least one more overseas trip before i have to renew it!! i may be dreaming, to think that may be possible... but sometimes it is worth it to dream!

11. it is going to take me around six years to earn a four year degree. dislike.

12. i wish i had no fear (except for the fear of God)--that i would be willing to step out more and take risks (big or little), love freely, correct gently, be more teachable, understand what it means to be meek in humility, and seek others good over my own...

13. i want to do something with the language i know--not just learn language for the sake of acquiring more knowledge, but DO something with it that matters

14. i wish i had the ability to take everyone's pain away and make life easier on everyone... although i am not sure that by doing so i am doing anybody any favors

15. i want to do something with my LIFE that matters... not merely exist for the sake of existence, but really impacts lives and gives God glory... even if that means I am in the kitchen scrubbing dishes.

16. i simply adore grilled cheese.

17. i really DO want to get married... but i have impossibly high standards these days. most days i don't give myself much hope in this realm. any sane man would run!! ha...

18. i am either an introverted extrovert or an extroverted introvert... i haven't quite figured it out...

19. i looooooooooooooooove to research. writing the paper, however... notsomuch... (and i want to write a book. ha.)

20. i wish i had my own apartment, sometimes. i would love to live alone for a while... with my two kitties, of course!

21. i honestly wish life wasn't as complicated as it is... but i wouldn't change a thing about my life. i am pretty sure i would create a cosmic meltdown were it left to me.

22. i have so much fun swing dancing... but now if i am twirled around, the world keeps spinning after i've stopped!! i miss it. :(

23. i think this is one of the most egotistical things i have done in a while. what the accomplishment!

24. i want someone to pay me to write out what i think about the world.

25. i wish...

11 April 2010

I'm starting some new books... I'm INCREDIBLY excited to get into them! The first one I'm gonna delve into is Transforming Grace by Jerry Bridges. This is what it says on the back cover...
Funny how the exceeding riches of God's grace seem to run out the moment we're saved. From then on, we tend to base our relationship with Him on our performance rather than on His grace. Of course, God continues to deal with us on the basis of His grace, whether or not we understand it. It's just that when we don't, we forgo the abundant freedoms that come from not having to measure up.
The product of more than ten years of Bible study, Transforming Grace is a fountainhead of inspiration and renewal that will show you just how inexhaustible and generous God's grace really is. You'll never be able to ask for too much, need too much, hope for too much, or even sin too much. Like a never-ending stream of ocean waves crashing on the shore, His grace "superabounds" toward you without measure.

This should be good... :) Our church has a Biblical counciling class going on right now, and today was the first day I attended. I was amazed at the class itself, and wish I had attended the first four classes! Better late than never, though, right?? I already have had my thoughts turned upside down on me, thinking through some of this.... I'll write more about it tomorrow, hopefully.

09 April 2010

joy

how do you describe a heart overflowing with joy?? i sense a new poem in the making... been a while! if it comes to fruition i'll let ya know! :)